heyys

[I'm sick]


Didn't go to school today, don't feel like it. I am down with a fever, a sore throat and flu.


God bless me.

sighs

[One million sighs]


Thanks for the concern, everyone. I really appreciate it. I guess i do owe you guys some explanation right?


Well its like this, i guess, in this period of my life i am going through huge and disastrous changes. And its all making me easily frustrated and depressed too. I'm really sorry.


And now i'm sick. Just down with a bad flu.


WHY.

haixx

[Sadness]


Don't ask. These few days have been really terrible, especially yesterday. I will never, ever forget what happened yesterday. The events have left a mark behind in me. I have expressed all of my negative feelings on a sheet of paper and i felt better after that. You should try that too whenever you're down. It works for me.


And i won't be able to go for OBS too. Won't explain why.


Depression.


And i shall be waiting, no matter what. I'll always be here.


*sighh*

reesultss

[Results]


Okay i got back some of my results today, and had that Physics and Chinese test too.


A maths - 36/40
E maths - 44/50
Biology - 32/50


*sighhs*

tests

[More tests coming along..]


Okay i'm still not spared from all these tests. Yesterday i received a message from Mrs Lim saying that there was going to be another Physics test with the same common test topics and i was like "Whaa?!?! Not again.." I think the reason she gave this so-last-minute test was because she found out that 3-8 was going to have another restest as the whole class did badly and it was only fair that we should have a test too.


I pity those chinese Geography students, because they would have to take 3 tests in a day, namely chinese, geography and now, physics. Good luck to you guys.


And now i'm alone at home. My family-except for me, went over to my uncle's house and my maid is having her off-day. I chose not to go so yea.


Boredness.


I also studied for the physics test at macdonalds with Vanessa, Karin and Hong Wei. At least i studied for physics, i don't plan to study for the chinese test though.


*rolls eyes* Hahaha.

chem

[Killer paper!]


Okay the final paper for this term's common test is chemistry, which i took today. I studied for this paper until 12am last night, and the paper was a real killer. I mean, of all the stuff that i studied almost none of them came out. The mole concept questions were O Level prelim questions according to Ms Chew, so i guess that's why it is hard. Anyway it was all pretty indirect so yea, i've already flunked two sciences including Physics. Grr...


But i don't feel sad like my usual. I've learn to deal with negative things positively, which is good i guess. *smiles*


And i got 35/40 for English Oral. I'm happy about that, because i've got the highest in class. Hehehe..


Today our english teacher also walked out of the class, because nobody bothered to listen to her, we were all busy doing our own things. Well i don't care too because i don't learn much in her lessons, compared to Mrs Chua.


I also learnt a little more about my classmates at the other side of the classroom, away from where i am sitting and they are great people too *grins*


And tomorrow mum's taking the whole family to dine in at an expensive japanese restaurant, i can't wait for it. It's been a long time since i've had sushi. So i think i can take tomorrow to relax and chill out before i study for the chinese test on monday.


I shall go chill out now. Heheh. *sticks out tongue*

bored

[I'm bored]


Today i felt so empty on the inside, i don't know why. But it feels terrible okay. Plus i got irritated easily. Mood swings?? I hope not.


Well actually, for the past two nights, i haven't been able to get a decent sleep. I just can't sleep and i'm too afraid to sleep. Why does these kind of things always happen to me? I also feel like puking sometimes (No, i'm not pregnant, thankyouverymuch)


And and i keep on feeling jealous. Grr... And there's biology common test tomorrow. I hope i can score decent marks for it. *sigh*

OBS

[OMG! OBS!]


Hahaha. I just came back home from school. Today we took the E maths common test and i think i can manage a pass. Although i hope for a distinction. *crosses fingers*


I'm also excited about the OBS camp that i'll be going to at the end of this month. Specifically from the 28th of August until the 1st of September. It's going to be tough but when i think about all the fun i'm going to have. Hehehe


And i've decided that i shall learn not to focus so much on the negative thoughts. I shall look on the bright side.

Go me! *grins*

bleahxx

[*sigh*]


Okay today i had A maths and surprisingly i could do most of the questions so i felt happy-until Physics period. The reason being Mrs Lim gave back our answer scripts and i scored 19.5/50


My initial reaction was "Okayyy... just as i expected... *sigh* " but actually deep inside i was so upset! Wanted to cry but i knew i couldn't and mustn't. I guess the only thing to do now is to study even harder until i get the grades that i want. I really don't know what's wrong.


Tomorrow we'll be having E maths and i'm not prepared for it yet, and i think i'll be off to study for it now.


If i can't do well for physics, surely i can do better at other subjects?


*sigh*

national day

[Er, National day?]


Okay i want to talk about National day! Haha. The reason being our family won a tv and an oven in some lucky draw thing of the walk-a-jog event.


Here's what happened.

On National day's eve my dad told us that we would be going to this walk-a-jog event the next day. And i woke up at 6am in the morning for it alright. At first i was very reluctant to go and was feeling quite moody. So we went to the field beside Yew Tee MRT. Then we had to walk from there, past Unity Sec, the bus stop at Yew Tee MRT, the traffic junction at limbang, past De La Salle and then back to that field. Basically my cousin and i was strolling away, and was the last few people to complete the thing. The organisors said that we could collect a lucky draw coupon after we completed the walk-a-jog thing, so we took it and put it into this box.


After that i went to look for my father and told him that my cousin and i want to go home first, i mean, what's the point of staying there and wait for that lucky draw. My mentality was that i wouldn't win anything, as usual. Before i went home i saw my primary 4 teacher, Mdm Toh and was surprised that she could still remember me. I used to remember that it was she that made me fall in love with chinese during primary school. Anyway i went home and took a shower, then my dad called me.


Initially i was like, what does he want now and he told me that we won the 1st and 2nd prizes of the lucky draw. I couldn't believe my ears at first, but he sounded like he wasn't kidding so yea. When he came back, he told me that he gave the oven (the 2nd prize) away to his friend because we already had one. And we were left with the tv :DD


Nice start to a day eh? Everyone's mood in the house lit up immediately and we were all happy. In the evening we watched the National Day Parade. I felt that it was so anti-climax. Like i care. LOL!


And next week is a week filled up with common tests. We have A maths on monday, E maths on tuesday, Biology on thursday and Chemistry on friday. Talk about being stressed up again :(


I hate it when tests come one after another. After the common tests i would have to start studying for End-of-the-year Examinations already and then in November i want to go to Beijing for this little exchange programme i think. Oh yea, i forgot about the Outward-Bound camp i would be having at the end of August. Its going to be fun, hehe

nationaldayeve

[National day's eve]


Yea, tomorrow's national day already. And its two days of holiday for me. Haha actually no, because i shall be studying. Studying for the maths common test on monday. I wouldn't want to fail it. Because i have already flunked physics again! :(


*Sigh* When will i ever pass any test of that subject. Its like yes i understand but no i do not know how to apply the information i know.


Well anyway school ended at 10am for me, and i went home straight after that only to find out that no one's at home and i had to wait for my maid to fetch my sisters and come back from school. So i was locked out. Its my fault too as i didn't bring my keys. Grrr.. Attending school today was like a waste of time, i mean we just had the annual parade thing and then we go back to class to draw on a piece of A4 paper what you think of singapore that kind of thing and i drew an 'i love singapore'. LOL someone tell me how lame was that.


Actually there's this SJI Annual Parade that i wanted to go to, but i wasn't allowed to so yea.


Now i'm kinda bored but yet lazy to go out. Guess i'll be online for the whole day, staring into the computer screen...

bwahah

[Preparations]


Its on monday! I'm talking about the Physics common test on monday. And i don't really understand much about any of the topics. Argh. Its driving me nuts again.

Anyway yesterday was my father's birthday. So yea that's a picture of his cake. I chose it okay. Haha. It was like when we were singing the birthday song i kept on saying 'happy birthday to me' and so its was very funny. I laughed like some mad woman, lol! *grins*


I think i shall go and study for the physics common test, even though i don't understand a single thing. But i'll find my own ways i guess. The reason i am studying earlier and even harder is because i really don't want to fail any of the subjects. I don't wish to be asked to drop any of my subjects, especially physics! In the worst case, even drop to take combined science. That's like the last thing i'll do. So as prevention is better than cure, why don't i start studying now so that i can enjoy the holidays and not get so stressed because i am unable to memorise those topics that were tested in the earlier half of the year.


Wish me luck. I'm off.

normal life

[Back to the normal and stressful life]


So yea, now Opus is over and i think Mr Lim would be starting to choose the pieces for next year's SYF. Now we have to work on American Salute and Sinfonia Noblissima.


Just now i also got back my physics test on forces if i'm not wrong, and i scored only 13.5/35! And its because i didn't study so yah. Physics is like so hard lah, its like, yes i know the facts but i just don't know how to apply what i know :(


And for the first time after the june holidays, i'm back home early at 3:45 hehe. I mean usually i would hang out at the prefect's room until about 6 then i'd go home. Miracle eh?


Anyway these few days, i've been doing my homework seriously and yes revising. I'm so afraid of the End-of-Year Examinations *sigh* I serioulsly need to work hard and buck up on maths and science, especially physics. I need help, all the help i can get. And i shall start studying now. Physics common test is on monday and i haven't started studying for it, if i dont pass, i'm doomed. The reason being i failed the 2 tests. So i think i would need more than just a pass.


What a stressful life i'm having now. Sometimes i wished i had taken combined science instead. Because my friends in that stream are all so carefree and relaxed. Grr .. I'm so jealous of them.


I wish, that i can take things easy. And to look at the bright side no matter what. I wish.