[stress: is it all over?]
today is the day of the prefect's investiture and the sec 3s are taking over the prefectorial board. many of them cried, and not me. dont ask why. but i shall really miss the excos though.not crying doesn't mean you dont miss them. its a happy and yet sad occasion somehow. i got this little towel in a pink container as a present from daz, how cute of her. it was really unique though. and the excos 05' put up the photos of the sec 3s on the wall inside the prefect's room as a gift. its very artistic of them :)
and i got interviewed by mr lim after band today. another means of stress? i dont know. i don't feel like thinking about it. but i spoke what i really felt inside, 100% of it!
tomorrow there will be a chalet for the sec 3 and 4 prefects, and on saturday morning i shall be going back for band. my playing was totally crap today.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Thursday, March 23, 2006
positions/decisions
[the stress: is it all over yet?]
and today there was a prefect's meeting for the sec 3s and exco members with mrs lim. basically she was talking about the results of the selection for the new excos and why some people got chosen and why not that kind of thing. i shall not want to elaborate. but the thing is that i dont understand is why adeline suddenly left the room saying she wanted to resign from the board. it was all so sudden. anyway the atmosphere when thomas was reading out the names were so tense. i dont know whether to be happy or sad.
okay enough of those stuff. finally things are almost solved, but still i could sense that there are some people that aren't happy with what they got. it was just too surprising.
school today wasn't too bad. i was practically laughing almost all the time because of farihah and aisyah. well except during the chinese lesson. i am so happy that mdm pang came back to teach maths. i could really understand what the lesson is about. finally there was a day where i enjoy doing maths more than english.
i also had band today and i liked the way festivo was played. it was at a fast tempo, i think the trumpets sounded really nice :)
and today there was a prefect's meeting for the sec 3s and exco members with mrs lim. basically she was talking about the results of the selection for the new excos and why some people got chosen and why not that kind of thing. i shall not want to elaborate. but the thing is that i dont understand is why adeline suddenly left the room saying she wanted to resign from the board. it was all so sudden. anyway the atmosphere when thomas was reading out the names were so tense. i dont know whether to be happy or sad.
okay enough of those stuff. finally things are almost solved, but still i could sense that there are some people that aren't happy with what they got. it was just too surprising.
school today wasn't too bad. i was practically laughing almost all the time because of farihah and aisyah. well except during the chinese lesson. i am so happy that mdm pang came back to teach maths. i could really understand what the lesson is about. finally there was a day where i enjoy doing maths more than english.
i also had band today and i liked the way festivo was played. it was at a fast tempo, i think the trumpets sounded really nice :)
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
decision
[decision: made]
happy birthday to randy (:
i didnt get him a present. how bad of me.
well anyway i've made my decision and it shall be announced. its prefect that i am choosing over band. why this is so, i shall not reveal until the time comes. for now i have to start doing the investiture stuff. and its due next week, i find it too rushed. but i dont have a choice anyway. i must have fun while doing the item together with adeline. now many problems start to arise as the choosing of the new excos for prefect is nearing really soon.
now im like feeling giddy as i type. i haven't went to the doctor to get my gastric medicine, my stomach just hurts. my dad is starting to question why i am not studying and going for band/prefect so much. i dont know what to tell him. but i am afraid that he might not allow me to go for either one. what am i supposed to do then?
and i didnt go for band practice, simply because i am down with fever and was fetched home by my father after school. i shall go to the doctors' tonight to get my gastric medicine, and perhaps a medical certificate to not attend school tomorrow. but i am afraid that i will get another injection like the last time. eek.
happy birthday to randy (:
i didnt get him a present. how bad of me.
well anyway i've made my decision and it shall be announced. its prefect that i am choosing over band. why this is so, i shall not reveal until the time comes. for now i have to start doing the investiture stuff. and its due next week, i find it too rushed. but i dont have a choice anyway. i must have fun while doing the item together with adeline. now many problems start to arise as the choosing of the new excos for prefect is nearing really soon.
now im like feeling giddy as i type. i haven't went to the doctor to get my gastric medicine, my stomach just hurts. my dad is starting to question why i am not studying and going for band/prefect so much. i dont know what to tell him. but i am afraid that he might not allow me to go for either one. what am i supposed to do then?
and i didnt go for band practice, simply because i am down with fever and was fetched home by my father after school. i shall go to the doctors' tonight to get my gastric medicine, and perhaps a medical certificate to not attend school tomorrow. but i am afraid that i will get another injection like the last time. eek.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
anothersunday
[sunday: its just another day]
so as usual i got up early this morning to go to church. its like just another sunday, but not this week because i had this 'spelling bee' competition. its the preliminary round and its already so hard. out of the like 500 they gave us to memorise, we were tested on 100 of them and i think i could only spell 38 of them? i might not be able to get through to the next round. oh well.
yesterday at about 7 in the evening, some sec 3s and sec 4s of the prefectorial board were invited over to mrs lim's house for a bbq. ya, it includes the excos too. nothing much to say but i did found out about some stuff while talking to amalina on the way back home. if it wasn't for her i couldn't have made my decision.
i'm surprised at the many comments given to me, i really appreciate it. i know now that no matter what, my batchmates will always be there for me, and i should never regret my decision. the only person i should listen to is myself, i would never let other people decide for me. what others say is just a comment, and nothing else. like suhaila said, "follow your heart, and dont let yourself follow others". i find it so true, because if you dont, you shall only end up at a losing end and regretting.
thanks guys (:
so as usual i got up early this morning to go to church. its like just another sunday, but not this week because i had this 'spelling bee' competition. its the preliminary round and its already so hard. out of the like 500 they gave us to memorise, we were tested on 100 of them and i think i could only spell 38 of them? i might not be able to get through to the next round. oh well.
yesterday at about 7 in the evening, some sec 3s and sec 4s of the prefectorial board were invited over to mrs lim's house for a bbq. ya, it includes the excos too. nothing much to say but i did found out about some stuff while talking to amalina on the way back home. if it wasn't for her i couldn't have made my decision.
i'm surprised at the many comments given to me, i really appreciate it. i know now that no matter what, my batchmates will always be there for me, and i should never regret my decision. the only person i should listen to is myself, i would never let other people decide for me. what others say is just a comment, and nothing else. like suhaila said, "follow your heart, and dont let yourself follow others". i find it so true, because if you dont, you shall only end up at a losing end and regretting.
thanks guys (:
Saturday, March 18, 2006
exco positions
[leadership positions: its just a name]
now after reading sakinah's post on soon-to-be-excos in the prefectorial board, i just had to reflect.
i dont know. but not long ago, i was asked to make a decision on whether i will put prefect or band as my first priority. and i chose prefect, however, it was band that i wanted deep down in my heart.
i realised that yes it was my batch mates that helped me, especially jennifer. and not the people in prefect. yes they helped, but it cannot be compared to those people in band. now i know too, that i am much much closer to band, than to prefect. not saying that prefect is bad or what, its just that i know band people, understands me the most. no offence, but i find that the current batch of band excos doesn't know all the sec 3s well enough yet. like that how would you ever know anything? its like they are always making assumptions all the time on what's been going on .. etc.
i ain't close to anyone in prefect, except maybe for sakinah and a few others.
and i told two people in the f&n room when i reported sick during band camp, i dont want any exco position in band. they asked me why, and i told them i just dont want it. and in my mind, its because of my act of defiance a few days ago that angered mr lim then i didnt want any of those.
last time, i used to want a position in band so much. but now i have to think of the sacrifices which i have to make. and i can't give it up so readily or easily.
the exco list for prefect has already been decided, and i dont know whether to reject it like what sakinah is going to do. or just accept it, and keep on getting confused. my mind is messed up at the moment. there are so many decisions to make, and i cannot decide on anything. i am only afraid that i might regret, afraid that it might disappoint some of the teachers again.
maybe i cannot make up my mind, because i dont know where to go, who to listen to. i might end up like jia hui (daz).
anyu has already made up her mind, sakinah has also made up her mind. now its my turn and time is already running out.
and exco position or whatever. its just a name and a position, you earn your own respect, you must set a good example, your punishment is doubled if you do make any mistakes (which everyone will). and you must handle stress along with time management etc. priorities is a plus.
some totally random thing: fourteens you all rock!
now after reading sakinah's post on soon-to-be-excos in the prefectorial board, i just had to reflect.
i dont know. but not long ago, i was asked to make a decision on whether i will put prefect or band as my first priority. and i chose prefect, however, it was band that i wanted deep down in my heart.
i realised that yes it was my batch mates that helped me, especially jennifer. and not the people in prefect. yes they helped, but it cannot be compared to those people in band. now i know too, that i am much much closer to band, than to prefect. not saying that prefect is bad or what, its just that i know band people, understands me the most. no offence, but i find that the current batch of band excos doesn't know all the sec 3s well enough yet. like that how would you ever know anything? its like they are always making assumptions all the time on what's been going on .. etc.
i ain't close to anyone in prefect, except maybe for sakinah and a few others.
and i told two people in the f&n room when i reported sick during band camp, i dont want any exco position in band. they asked me why, and i told them i just dont want it. and in my mind, its because of my act of defiance a few days ago that angered mr lim then i didnt want any of those.
last time, i used to want a position in band so much. but now i have to think of the sacrifices which i have to make. and i can't give it up so readily or easily.
the exco list for prefect has already been decided, and i dont know whether to reject it like what sakinah is going to do. or just accept it, and keep on getting confused. my mind is messed up at the moment. there are so many decisions to make, and i cannot decide on anything. i am only afraid that i might regret, afraid that it might disappoint some of the teachers again.
maybe i cannot make up my mind, because i dont know where to go, who to listen to. i might end up like jia hui (daz).
anyu has already made up her mind, sakinah has also made up her mind. now its my turn and time is already running out.
and exco position or whatever. its just a name and a position, you earn your own respect, you must set a good example, your punishment is doubled if you do make any mistakes (which everyone will). and you must handle stress along with time management etc. priorities is a plus.
some totally random thing: fourteens you all rock!
band camp
[camp: discipline]
overall for band camp, i thought it was more of an emphasis for discipline. everyone's movement was really really slow. including mine. i had no sense of urgency and stuff.
on the second day of camp (which is my first), was pretty interesting. we had trekking at macritchie resevoir for the morning, we came back for lunch and it was followed by sectionals or something, i couldn't remember. it was only at night when i started to have fun in the "undeground S.S" game. the getting 'tortured' part was really fun for me. and for supper i think it was the teachers that bought pizza as supper for us. it was really nice of them.
and the next morning, i got up at around 6:30 and washed up, then reported for 'PT' at seven. before it even started, i started having pains in the stomach so i reported sick. i didn't bring my medicine for gastric. the pain was unbearable. well anyway i rested in the f&n lab for the whole morning and found out a whole lot of things from joseph and some from aaron. practically i was quite shocked. i wasn't the only sick one there. there were a few others. then in the afternoon i went for the prize presentation for camp and sectionals until about 5. at 5 we had like this cake-cutting ceremony for mr lim. then i went to lot 1 with a few people to have dinner and i went home. basically, it was a boring day for me. because i was sick.
if you have read my previous post you might have wondered what "music i had to face" and its all three of us getting kicked out of the ensemble competition. i have nothing to say but i felt it was already quite a heavy punishment, after practising so hard and getting kicked out. well fair enough, since i defied. for me i was neither happy nor disappointed. but i feel this isn't the end. they wouldn't let us off so easily.
and on monday school's going to re-open again. and yes i am so looking forward to it. i can have my fair share of fun and relaxation time without anyone stopping me.
overall for band camp, i thought it was more of an emphasis for discipline. everyone's movement was really really slow. including mine. i had no sense of urgency and stuff.
on the second day of camp (which is my first), was pretty interesting. we had trekking at macritchie resevoir for the morning, we came back for lunch and it was followed by sectionals or something, i couldn't remember. it was only at night when i started to have fun in the "undeground S.S" game. the getting 'tortured' part was really fun for me. and for supper i think it was the teachers that bought pizza as supper for us. it was really nice of them.
and the next morning, i got up at around 6:30 and washed up, then reported for 'PT' at seven. before it even started, i started having pains in the stomach so i reported sick. i didn't bring my medicine for gastric. the pain was unbearable. well anyway i rested in the f&n lab for the whole morning and found out a whole lot of things from joseph and some from aaron. practically i was quite shocked. i wasn't the only sick one there. there were a few others. then in the afternoon i went for the prize presentation for camp and sectionals until about 5. at 5 we had like this cake-cutting ceremony for mr lim. then i went to lot 1 with a few people to have dinner and i went home. basically, it was a boring day for me. because i was sick.
if you have read my previous post you might have wondered what "music i had to face" and its all three of us getting kicked out of the ensemble competition. i have nothing to say but i felt it was already quite a heavy punishment, after practising so hard and getting kicked out. well fair enough, since i defied. for me i was neither happy nor disappointed. but i feel this isn't the end. they wouldn't let us off so easily.
and on monday school's going to re-open again. and yes i am so looking forward to it. i can have my fair share of fun and relaxation time without anyone stopping me.
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
fun@sentosa
[face the music]
yesterday morning i had a group meeting at school and we discussed about camp. at night i attended the bedok north band's concert and i liked the encore piece very much. not to mention the space battleship yamato, it was a very exciting piece.
and this morning karin, qin yuan and me did not attend the band camp for today. because we really wanted to go for the class outing and weren't allowed to.
what i dont understand is that, why we weren't allowed to go for it. for me its like i know there is a competition coming up. why dont people look at things from another point of view, and try to understand the situation here. i did not have time to relax or enjoy myself, all i wanted was half a day. stop looking things only at your point of view! you'll only end up at the losing end. and you shall end up regretting your actions. now i really don't care about any position. its just a title. like karin said, you only end up doubling everything. like your playing, leadership skills etc. also you will end up doubling punishments for every mistake you make. it isn't worth it. why is it that sometimes people cannot be open-minded? enlighten me please.
last saturday i had to attend the prefect's camp which ends on monday. and yesterday as i said i had a group meeting and concert to attend. and today there is supposed to be a band camp which runs until friday, and saturday is the day for competition, on sunday i have church plus another church competition that i wanted to go for.
can someone tell me how i am going to finish up my homework? what about the chemistry test on monday?
anyway today the three of us made our way down to sentosa ourselves. we wasn't allowed to join the class because we didn't have the permission. but we did have our share of fun and we could really relax. i am satisfied already.
and tomorrow the three of us shall face the music for skipping band camp and defying the teacher's orders. i have no clue on what will happen.
i feel that i dont seem to have the right to choose. it may sound selfish yes i am aware of that. but hey, you will hate it if someone were to deny you your only day to relax and enjoy abit, isn't that what holidays are for? i thought short holidays were meant for some catching up in some school work.
now i would have to start packing my camp stuff for tomorrow and face the music. i shall bear all the consequences, because this is my choice! nobody should take this away from me, and nobody will.
don't you find it unfair, you can't have your own say. someone must make decisions for you. as a teenager, it feels like as if you don't even have the freedom. and its a terrible feeling ain't it? when your parents don't even allow you to enjoy and keep on pressurizing you.
i'm telling you it will only make things worse.
yesterday morning i had a group meeting at school and we discussed about camp. at night i attended the bedok north band's concert and i liked the encore piece very much. not to mention the space battleship yamato, it was a very exciting piece.
and this morning karin, qin yuan and me did not attend the band camp for today. because we really wanted to go for the class outing and weren't allowed to.
what i dont understand is that, why we weren't allowed to go for it. for me its like i know there is a competition coming up. why dont people look at things from another point of view, and try to understand the situation here. i did not have time to relax or enjoy myself, all i wanted was half a day. stop looking things only at your point of view! you'll only end up at the losing end. and you shall end up regretting your actions. now i really don't care about any position. its just a title. like karin said, you only end up doubling everything. like your playing, leadership skills etc. also you will end up doubling punishments for every mistake you make. it isn't worth it. why is it that sometimes people cannot be open-minded? enlighten me please.
last saturday i had to attend the prefect's camp which ends on monday. and yesterday as i said i had a group meeting and concert to attend. and today there is supposed to be a band camp which runs until friday, and saturday is the day for competition, on sunday i have church plus another church competition that i wanted to go for.
can someone tell me how i am going to finish up my homework? what about the chemistry test on monday?
anyway today the three of us made our way down to sentosa ourselves. we wasn't allowed to join the class because we didn't have the permission. but we did have our share of fun and we could really relax. i am satisfied already.
and tomorrow the three of us shall face the music for skipping band camp and defying the teacher's orders. i have no clue on what will happen.
i feel that i dont seem to have the right to choose. it may sound selfish yes i am aware of that. but hey, you will hate it if someone were to deny you your only day to relax and enjoy abit, isn't that what holidays are for? i thought short holidays were meant for some catching up in some school work.
now i would have to start packing my camp stuff for tomorrow and face the music. i shall bear all the consequences, because this is my choice! nobody should take this away from me, and nobody will.
don't you find it unfair, you can't have your own say. someone must make decisions for you. as a teenager, it feels like as if you don't even have the freedom. and its a terrible feeling ain't it? when your parents don't even allow you to enjoy and keep on pressurizing you.
i'm telling you it will only make things worse.
Monday, March 13, 2006
im back.
[camp: tired]
okay so i've put up another layout, i'm back to blogging and i came back from prefect's camp today.
overall the camp was pretty fun and interesting, and i love my group. everyone tried to be enthusiastic which made the games and cheering fun. basically i dont have many comments about the camp.
and now i need to rush and prepare the stuff for the band camp by tomorrow's group meeting. i got a bad feeling about this camp, dont ask me why. i think i might break down anytime during the camp.
plus i still have tons of homework to complete. kill me.
okay so i've put up another layout, i'm back to blogging and i came back from prefect's camp today.
overall the camp was pretty fun and interesting, and i love my group. everyone tried to be enthusiastic which made the games and cheering fun. basically i dont have many comments about the camp.
and now i need to rush and prepare the stuff for the band camp by tomorrow's group meeting. i got a bad feeling about this camp, dont ask me why. i think i might break down anytime during the camp.
plus i still have tons of homework to complete. kill me.
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